Hi dad I can't still can't believe you are not here and poor mum has to go through Monday without you I know she misses you so much like us all, we celebrated our second wedding anniversary and I sat and watched our DVD and the thought that you wasn't they was just so hard and I know you would of loved tob as he is amazing. And also the thought that Emma is no with us anymore is just unbelievable I hope you are looking after her and you both are looking down at the kids as they are being so brave. I have had a hard time getting used to the idea of having the op but I need to have it so I can move on with my life it is so hard but I need it, looking at it I know it might be even harder once I have had it and I really hope I want change and that tob is so supportive I hope it don't change us, I wish you was here to help me go through it every women dream is having children but it just hasn't happened for me and that is harder every month so it is time to have op and then I can move on I can't go through any more miscarriages 7 is enough. Please dad be with me when I have it done I need you and your Daddy cuddles, love you and miss you everyday stay with us always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx