lolastarkey58 25th January 2013

Dad . . Well what can i say, it has been ages since i have been on here but i promise you that there isn't a day that goes by where you are not on my mind; i think about you every day and how much i miss you! Knowing that you are not here beside me when i need you most is killing me;; its the hardest thing, i just wish i could turn around and your d be there; i know its impossible; and i know i have mum but shes going to find it hard too;; I would give anything for you to meet your little princess grandaughter in june; i hope that when i go into labour you will be by my side, making sure that your princess and your granddaughter gets through it just fine and healthy; because thats whats scaring me the most! but i know i can count on you dad <3 i know that gary will look after me and always be there to help me along now that you cant be here in person; dont worry you would have liked him; he would have loved to met you its horrible that he cant; but i know you have checked him out already aha ; ) But just because you are not here doesnt mean that you will be forgotten ever! and i will talk about you to my little girl and make sure she knows how amazing and how much grandad would have loved to meet her; and that he is always looking down; making sure she is safe! When i bring her home for the first time i will bring her outside in the garden to meer her special and best grandad <3<3<3 i love you so much dad; i thought that i was alot stronger but everytime i think about memories and the good times and how much you mean to me; the flood gates open and i just cant believe its going to fast i wish;; i could turn back time and change it so you was still with us all! you dont understand what i would give for one cuddle with you & i know its not just me cause i know jack and harry feel it too; you would be so proud of us; and how far we have come and how mum has raised us since you have gone;; i love you dad; thats never going to change; just please never stop looking over us and keep us all safe;; i hope them angels are treating you like a king;; MISS YOUUU ; love from Your Little Princess & Bump xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx